History

I Served the devil for a long time. My family was a multi-generational satanic Blood line. It`s hard to put into Pieces, it`s hard to come to the realization of that. I wished for so long that it never had to be that way, It`s saddening. The reality of what went on was more then people could Bare.

But the grace of God gave me the strength. I dissociated into multiple Personalities. It`s a skill that any child will use when they go through such Horrible things.

My life was dedicated to Satan as a Young child by family members and by the satanic cult that was involved. It`s a big network of individuals, Not just my family but many other people connected.

I was trained, Formed and used for all the devils Purposes. I would go on Missions as a kid, Leaving to the United States as a young child to do things they wanted me to do. There was so much training that parts of me were trained for only one purpose in mind. I won`t go to much into Detail.

but the whole idea is trauma is used to Form Dissociation, The more dissociation that they did to me, the more they were able to control me. I did what they said. Why? Because I was told I would die if i didnt and they would show killed people in front of me to show me "that is what will fucking happen if you don`t obey". What will a young child do? Of course I`m angry, that Is why I am writing this, I am Upset, It comes to mind and I feel all the pain and I just want to get away from it. It`s unbelievable and I just want to be safe, free from it all. It`s gone on way to long and I just want to free, enjoy holy spirit and enjoy my life in christ.

Hypnosis was used to Create triggers. There`s so many trigger words and Word Phrases used it boggles my mind. I don`t even know the half of them. There is numbers, In the inner world (the spirit) there is a inner realm of many Parts set into different rooms where Demons are assigned to them. Those demons are put there through rituals. I was forced to attend many different satanic rituals.

It`s hard to go to back to these memories, but I don`t want to focus on evil, I want to focus on the fact that God is so much bigger then all this. He sets the captives free. I know as I am walking in the spirit that There is no way that I am not getting freedom in christ. By His stripes I am healed. I will live in the spirit and in rightouness as I am a preist and king of christ. By this fruit, I walk not by carnality but by spiritual Life that was given to me through the cross.

right now I don`t know exactly why, It simple was just that, it just happened and I don`t have to put anymore purpose then That it happened and it`s to bad that it went that way. But I am able to see in the end the glory of God, His freedom and power to set me from everything of this world.

Commitment

Love and hate are so close together it boggles my mind. You can love a person one moment and hate them the next. It`s weird how that works. Frustration, confusion and Hurt. Ive gone through those processes before in Relationships. It can be a fricking drag, but what matters is if that person is meaningful to you, You decide to take it where you want and commit to it.

koinionia in a nutshell

Music is for the heart and the soul. No one can hold that back. Music is unique in that it can Change a persons Perspective, States and break negative Patterns and triggers. I have no idea what I do when I make music but It just flows and some how it just puts it`s self to together just like life. I think Music has a way with life that can motivate a human, Inspire in a way that can change a persons life forever. Moment by I moment I enjoy seeing that happen.

I never started music forcefully, There wasnt really any goals, just doing it because I find it pretty awesome and it`s inspiring. 

That`s koiniona in a nutshell brothasssss D: ahaha.  Koinina in a nutshell is Unity, love, Compassion, life and all that stuff you love put into a gift basket, wrapped up with some Delicious Cheese Cake. That`s Fellowship with holy spirit and it`s reallly awesome. And I am laughing because God is so funny. He gets my jokes, He gets me totally, better then anyone. How Intimate is that?

Most can`t even talk to God like that. Well brothers and sister, It can`t be taught, or learned. It just happens. You either have it or not. I don`t even know how it happens. It`s just Koinionia.

Edmonton Oilers Trade talk. Travis Hamonic in the mix.

News Came out recently that Travis hamonic from the new york islanders has requested a trade to subjectively a western hockey team for reasons that are personal (Something to do with family or what not). 

Here is what is going to happen. Edmonton will trade for a Right shot D-man before Christmas time. Peter chiarelli is currently in talks with NY islanders for the travis hamonic trade. NY was asking for Either Nurse or Klef in that trade talk. So right now in this moment I believe chiarelli is talking with oilers management team, He is waiting it out for a bit. I don`t believe eberle will be traded, He is just to proven of a player and Personally we will have to see mcdavid with eberle once Mcdavid gets healthy. There is going to be big moves coming up soon. Peter will not  hesitate to improve the oilers, weather sooner or later. A move will happen before Christmas, That is just my honest %100 Belief. By next year this team will be much improved.

Peter is not only talking with NY, He is talking with other teams. I don`t know exactly what teams, but he is looking for that top 2 or 4 d-man of the future, to secure our Defense.

Peter is looking at yakupov wondering if he fits for the future, and now that we see that leon drai is playing like he is (14 points in 9 games), We are definitely looking at some moves happening. The moves that will come soon will be about the future and the now. The trades will happen to make sure there will be enough cap space for future signings of Nurse, Mcdavid and Leon, but as well to improve the defense that we so Strongly need (we all know this) . Leon could be traded but that is not going to happen right now, it would more so happen just before he has to be resigned for a bigger NHL lvl Contract. Leon would more then likely be traded next year at the draft or in the off season, I just don`t see it happening right now or this season. Leon is just to good right now.

Schultz will be in talk for trades, draft picks and prospects will also be in talks for a deal coming soon. I believe 4 teams are currently talking with NY islanders over the Hamonic trade and I honestly Believe Edmonton will get hamonic. Peter wants this player, But NY has asked a bit to much, They want Nurse or Klef, probably a pick or even instead,  giving up Sekera + a prospect or a draft pick for travis hamonic (sekera being traded is way to early, He needs to be with the team for at-least half a season, but it`s still possible he gets traded).

I would love to see Justin Schultz + a draft pick(s) and/Or a prospect for Hamonic straight across, but you have to wonder if NY wants a player that is Going through a test season with Edmonton to see if they want to resign him next year. Is this a good idea for NY to get a player that might not even sign with them the next year? No, So I believe schultz + for travis won`t happen, you would have to give up more then just schultz, maybe even give up another D-man or D prospect. NY wants a equal value of a defender in order to deal this trade. So this leaves, Nurse, Kleb and sekera in the mix for the trade. As wishful thinking as this sounds, I believe it is likely to happen, but if not There will definitely be a trade for a d-man by this new year.

Dating life

as a guy, It should be your Duty and standard to be so good at Social Interactions, that you will never have to worry about a woman liking you or your dating life because all of it is natural and a everyday thing.

For me, I feel good. I don`t have to worry about someone liking me, Because there is so much out there, so many Great things, life is just to good to worry about weather someone likes you or not. I mean seriously, whats the big deal. rejection is nothing. I eat rejection, That shit don`t limit me at all.

Humble and greatful

In my life I have faced many Adversaries. Ive seen Pain, Death and lose. But ive seen a part of life that most will never see. I have a spiritual awareness and understanding that some may understand. This is just the life of the gifted, The ones that are unique in life, in ways they will inspire, lead the nations and create a life for others that will truly change this planet. Everyone is unique and has a purpose.

It`s my mission to change the face of the earth one by one and it will happen one by one and I see it day by day. I am Profoundly amazed at what life has given me.

When Women Think their ugly

When women think their ugly...

Most women have this issue, weather small or not. Many reasons could be social dynamics and other outside psychological influences. It`s based on Standards, Most women unconsciously  want to Live up to these false Expectations the fashion industry has pulled. The Image of how a women should be, Act and look like, It`s twisted in all sorts of ways.

Give me probable Cause to why you "Think" your ugly?...
" I have none". Well there you go, your not fucking ugly.

end of Fight.... But it`s not, because women Don`t base it off of Logic, but Emotion and self-conscious Down-grading.

So Guy`s can`t win this fight over with logic, but with love and understanding and of course a lot of patience (damn that sucks).

Once Our Culture changes, This issue will start to resolve. But that change starts with one person and that`s you. 

meaningful

So you care about someone, you know you love them, but you can`t be with them because you live apart.

What are you supposed to do, Wait? What does that person want though? It`s confusing, but You have to just keep holding on, The moment will come when it is time.

I realize that this situation that I`m talking about will be resolved, I will be blessed when the outcome will show itself to me. Holy spirit has been revealing me life in these areas, I know for fact that God has a amazing plan, But It is not happening just yet because I`m not quiet ready. When were ready, We head straight for this glorious plan that is painted out like a gorgeous Painting that just fits perfectly.

I am able to see this plan, but There is only a specific Amount that I am able to see prophetically. First off, holy spirit wants to surprise me, because he loves me. Surprises are fun right? he wants to make it fun, Exciting and romantic. I see the exact romance I will have with my future wife and forever mate is just a bit of a small picture of the unity and relationship I have with holy spirit and its been like that ever since I was kid.... Wow this is incredible, How intimate and personal can this get?

I`m blown away by this. Each little true spiritual thing That I desire, love and want is exactly the personality of The Godhead. From all my journey I am able to see this being expressed and explored through the things God brings in my life, Those special Gifts and treats that we wait a while for but are ever-so meaningful.