koinonia Lifestyle

"So I had this on my mind as I woke up this morning.

Sin is not an action it is a lifestyle, a journey. Just like carnal believers they see actions not the journey. So too a carnal believer can see sin and in seeing sin all they acknowledge is they are on a carnal journey of sin. Truly if they see sin they have not seen God. That may be offensive but so be it, any who need calming down are sold into a lifestyle of self and sin and there is no point arguing to make their carnal journey feel better. If you see sin you are in a lifestyle of sin and even if you have surrendered your life to Christ in seeing sin you admit you have made a partnership with God and God makes no partnership.

To this type of person manifestations validate their identity and worth to God in their eyes. They have manifestations and lots of them but fail to see manifestations in-validate us not validate. A manifestation scream at us “we have no identity” whereas koinonia co-joined life says I am the manifestation and it is called co-joined life, A MARRIAGE IN WHICH I ABIDE. If you see manifestation it is invalidating our carnal identity, so when in religion we see miracles all we are doing is admitting we are needing invalidating. We are admitting we are carnal and living a sinful default. Those manifestations are a romantic God inviting us to surrender our carnality but inside religion we do more of the same. As we have an orphan heart  a heart that can see sin and tries hard not overcome it.

The thing about sin when you examine its nature is that one sin leads to another. There is no such thing as isolate sin, we can say we sinned but in reality in saying “we sin”, we reveal I am a sinner sold under slavery, sold into sin as my birthright.

When the religious notice sin all they are doing is admitting they are married to it and living carnal. THEY HAVE never seen God. Oh sure they have had a manifestation of God and have even partnered with God. But to be sure if you can say you have sin all you are saying is you are in partnership with God and God does not have partnerships.

So the religious howl about their imperfection and how they struggle to be holy and righteous. Sanctification to the religious is an action not a lifestyle. Their actions are something they put in great focus. Why they even say things like, we are a living epistle and need to live as such. The koinonia says when I sin, no matter it is not my lifestyle. In-fact my lifestyle is being conjoined with Christ it is no longer I that lives but Christ who lives in and through me. The life I live is no longer me. Wretched man that I am I still do the things that I don’t want to do because I live in a carnal world sold into sin and my carnal man still is part of me.

A co-joined married to Christ person does not try to be a living epistle by actions or even identifying they are not. In identifying they are trying to be a living epistle all they are saying is I am carnal sold into a sin lifestyle. If I see carnal life then truly I am living carnal life as my default. Sure I will have times carnality raises up and then I say. Wretched man that I am I do the thing I don’t want to do. Thanks be to God it’s not longer I that lives but Christ that lives in me.

          ²⁴ What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? ²⁵  
       Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave    to God’s law, but in my sinful nature^[d]a slave to the law of sin.

I choose to live heavenly and in that lifestyle I rest and abide and have joy. In that lifestyle I cease to see sin even when I do it. You see I am married to God and it’s no longer I that lives but Christ that lives in me."

Awnser

Ive sought to find the decision I feel like I have been given to make.




This amazing Decision I get to make. God trusts me with this person I love. I get to decide weather I want to move forward to make a great future together with this person. I questioned If I really loved this person. I wondered what were my Motives, I wondered the condition of my Heart. I asked If me being in this person Life was the best for them. Now that I have found the answer; It is up to the other person within their Decision. I know with whatever Happens their will come great purposes for it all.

I`m seeing myself being freed from a Orphan Heart. A heart that once was afraid to be alone, Once was scared to love, Be open or to be vulnerable.


As I grow, As I just see truth, Free to be who I am and See life in Holy spirit. I just realize the more wooing of God`s love towards me, I am able to find inside my Heart truth and love. Ive been given the answer to move forward towards the future with this person. Ive finally came to the conclusion this person Is the only Girl Ive ever loved. I did not know that for a while actually. But It was first a great revealing within me but also In myself I felt scared because It`s the first time Ive ever felt like that.This was not just a emotional feeling, even though Their is that but It was something in me that Knew in a way that I can`t explain with Words. I don`t know how quiet to explain it, But It`s a understanding In Spirit that far Extends Emotions, feelings and Knowledge. I finally understand what it means to make Sacrifice`s for a person you love.

I honestly See The gift this person is in my life. It`s one of the best Gifts God has ever given me and Sometimes feels like the "best" even though I know their is a few things like Christ dieing for me that are of the most delightful Presents. I think That is more a Spirit understanding. Meaning It being the best gift given, I think the gift of Love, Gift of life and any Gift from Holy spirit is all Fit into God`s Heart. So Every Gift given From Above is all fit into the gift that God has given us. This gift that is given to us Is eternal Life, this eternal Flow of life is Everything That God has given us weather that be on the cross, Christ and all the rest of the things you desire and love.

Their is so much That I know I`m going to learn about her. I realized That things were not going to be perfect, once I accepted her for who she Is, realizing that I`m not there to change her or try to make her "better" or w/e. I found a love that is really amazing, Like a love that is unshakable and unmovable. I found why I "tried" to seek the truth of My heart for this person, I found in myself The love of God. When I tried to find If I really loved this person, I found the Father`s love for me.



It was in my Own "Seeking" my Love for this person That God himself Wooed my heart in Romance. He showed me His love in a way that I`m starting to be revealed in such a big way that is outside a box, Outside of Carnal understanding.



Within Myself the hurt Ive Experienced, I realize my Need for God. I realize the utmost wanting,Desire and compelling in God`s love and heart. I feel as though I have lost most of everything but I have found everything. "Lose your life so you may find your life". It feels as though I am just finding my Life and Finding who I am in Christ. Some days It is a sad, loneliness because I`m grieving as if I`m losing what Ive tried to keep hold of my entire life.



As I see this, I am seeing the comfort of Holy spirit breathing life into my life and Revealing Spiritual Understanding and Truth that doesn't come from Knowledge.

This love is bigger then understanding and knowledge.

Seeing Heaven

ive had near death experiences before. First off, There is a lot more peace then some people may think. Your basically in your spiritual body. One of the times I had a NDE God showed me Heaven. I was just a little kid and was very sad because I wanted to be with him, I wanted to go home but He told me It was not time. I honestly Still feel sad because the NDE I had was a painful one and I realized How amazing Heaven is, I wanted to go so badly but Knew If I did not stay I would miss a lot that He wanted.

I felt completely Free, totally free. I was upset to have to stay. But God promised me somethings, that I know he will keep.

I realize now, There is purpose to be here. There`s a great reason to be here. As much as I want to be in heaven (even though heaven is flowing through me), There is so much here that is waiting for us. So much that Will come to pass through our life. It is soo worth it.

Love

if you love anyone, if you truly see how amazing that feeling is to love someone. Then you just see, The reason that love is there is to reveal How much God loves you. Ive seen times where (actually once) where I was in love with another girl. I realized my Love for her Is revealing how Much God loves me and When I ever see any love from others It`s Showing Romance with God and revealing The Spirit of God in that situation. As I`m just living and seeing romance all over my life, Like everywhere I turn, everyday I walk, Every corner I go to I see God`s love for me and I`m just always going to see it because I`m in him and It`s never going to leave me.

This love is something Ive completely Drawn to. Ive been drawn to this love from God ever since I can remember. I am so Intensely in love with him, I love nothing else. All I can think about is him, All of my passions, desires and love experiences come from him and His throne.

Just talking with The Father, Just being alone with him, Watching the sunset and the sky at night it really feels like Your the only one in the world that he loves. He makes you feel the most special person in the whole entire world.

The more I walk, the more I see just how He takes every single moment of my life to show me just how much he loves. He will make it the most simplest Jester of love to me. It could be the most simplest thing and It`s all because He accepts me for who I am.

I am so drawn by this love, I am so fascinated with his love, I am completely Consumed by His Presence. I could go and be With God the Father in Heaven right now. I`m just so overwhelmed by His goodness. This is a love That I can`t Understand, it`s a love that Completely Washes away  pain and sorrow. It`s a love that frees us.

This love is honestly Much bigger then I could ever Imagine.