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Ive sought to find the decision I feel like I have been given to make.




This amazing Decision I get to make. God trusts me with this person I love. I get to decide weather I want to move forward to make a great future together with this person. I questioned If I really loved this person. I wondered what were my Motives, I wondered the condition of my Heart. I asked If me being in this person Life was the best for them. Now that I have found the answer; It is up to the other person within their Decision. I know with whatever Happens their will come great purposes for it all.

I`m seeing myself being freed from a Orphan Heart. A heart that once was afraid to be alone, Once was scared to love, Be open or to be vulnerable.


As I grow, As I just see truth, Free to be who I am and See life in Holy spirit. I just realize the more wooing of God`s love towards me, I am able to find inside my Heart truth and love. Ive been given the answer to move forward towards the future with this person. Ive finally came to the conclusion this person Is the only Girl Ive ever loved. I did not know that for a while actually. But It was first a great revealing within me but also In myself I felt scared because It`s the first time Ive ever felt like that.This was not just a emotional feeling, even though Their is that but It was something in me that Knew in a way that I can`t explain with Words. I don`t know how quiet to explain it, But It`s a understanding In Spirit that far Extends Emotions, feelings and Knowledge. I finally understand what it means to make Sacrifice`s for a person you love.

I honestly See The gift this person is in my life. It`s one of the best Gifts God has ever given me and Sometimes feels like the "best" even though I know their is a few things like Christ dieing for me that are of the most delightful Presents. I think That is more a Spirit understanding. Meaning It being the best gift given, I think the gift of Love, Gift of life and any Gift from Holy spirit is all Fit into God`s Heart. So Every Gift given From Above is all fit into the gift that God has given us. This gift that is given to us Is eternal Life, this eternal Flow of life is Everything That God has given us weather that be on the cross, Christ and all the rest of the things you desire and love.

Their is so much That I know I`m going to learn about her. I realized That things were not going to be perfect, once I accepted her for who she Is, realizing that I`m not there to change her or try to make her "better" or w/e. I found a love that is really amazing, Like a love that is unshakable and unmovable. I found why I "tried" to seek the truth of My heart for this person, I found in myself The love of God. When I tried to find If I really loved this person, I found the Father`s love for me.



It was in my Own "Seeking" my Love for this person That God himself Wooed my heart in Romance. He showed me His love in a way that I`m starting to be revealed in such a big way that is outside a box, Outside of Carnal understanding.



Within Myself the hurt Ive Experienced, I realize my Need for God. I realize the utmost wanting,Desire and compelling in God`s love and heart. I feel as though I have lost most of everything but I have found everything. "Lose your life so you may find your life". It feels as though I am just finding my Life and Finding who I am in Christ. Some days It is a sad, loneliness because I`m grieving as if I`m losing what Ive tried to keep hold of my entire life.



As I see this, I am seeing the comfort of Holy spirit breathing life into my life and Revealing Spiritual Understanding and Truth that doesn't come from Knowledge.

This love is bigger then understanding and knowledge.